I'm not going to lie to you, the month of May has sucked. I can even tell you the date the month began sucking for me, May 6th. That is the day that all hell broke loose, and an attack on my character began.
I've never really had to defend who I am. My character has usually spoken for itself. Sure, I have made my share of mistakes, but I typically own up to those mistakes. In this instance, I didn't do anything wrong, but my word meant nothing, length of time served meant nothing, who I was meant nothing. Fortunately, I had allies, who found out my character was being attacked and came to my defense, which unfortunately also put them in the hot seat. Never have I been in the office so many times in 1 month having to defend myself. I will admit, I lost my temper on multiple times. I did not always display a good Christian mouth (in fact mom, you probably would have put soap in my mouth one of the times- but I did apologize later for my language use), but I fought for what was right, and when it finally came down to what was right, it was found in my favor (it took the entire month, but I did come out on top).
Now here's the one thing I am struggling with: forgiveness. I know that I need to forgive the person who caused this in the first place. I don't want to. Not yet. I'm so angry that I had to go through almost 4 weeks of daily battles, that I'm not ready to forgive her. I need to though, but it's hard to forgive someone when they don't feel any remorse for what they have done to you.
Matthew West has a song, "Forgiveness", and the lyrics are so true to everything that I am feeling towards this person right now.