Thursday, April 21, 2011

To Know Or Not To Know...

Do I really want to know?  This is the question that I have been wrestling with for the past week and a half.  It has made me cranky, irritable, emotional, & it has been interfering with my sleep.

What is it that I'm not sure if I want to know?  Tomorrow morning, we're going to load the kids in the car and drive down to Children's Memorial.  From there we are going to walk to the geneticist's office. 

Geneticist.  Genes.  I was fascinated with this when I was in college, and I enjoy teaching about it, but now it's going to apply to real life, our life.   

Do I want to know what, if any, disorders we have passed onto our daughter and son?  Thinking about it makes me want to throw up.  On the other hand, what if this gives us answers as to why our daughter doesn't like to eat and isn't growing? 

I am torn.   Do I want to know or do I not want to know?  Good question.


  1. God will let you know what He wants you to far we know nothing...He will hold you gently and we will uphold you in prayer tomorrow. Love you so much

  2. I would want to know. But I'm surprised you can do genetic testing before they can consent? Since I had the genetic testing done for BRCA and tested positive, I of course wanted to know for Iz. But I have to wait until she's 18 since she has to consent. Maybe different tests have different parameters. I hope it goes well and with your faith you will work with whatever the outcome.

  3. You have a wise mom. Praying for you this week. Do you have the results back? Did Juliana get one of the homemade chocolate peanut butter cups that I heard about?:0)